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FORWARD I hate Ignorance for no reason. Come on, it’s a bit silly now that you would do this after you came to me? Ah, Social Media... The Devil's Work! Maybe it was my tiny breakdown? Was it something I said? Sod it, it doesn’t matter, now. What’s done is done, but it still stings when you’ve done nothing wrong. Anyway, life is very short. This year we lost Ozzy (Osbourne) and in recent years a lot of people we came to love and respect. It feels like a huge competition sometimes in the film scene. People fighting for that number one spot of fame and fortune and a special friendship circle. This is nothing new to me if I'm honest. I love being creative and always have been since primary school. In school, I used to write stories about far out people and scenarios where class friends and teachers wanted more of the adventure or intriguing story with pictures drawn by myself. There was surely a spark of madness or genius way back then in class. As we get older, we sometimes lose ...

In 2022, I managed to win a small statue award for a Godzilla-Related Documentary I created in 2017 with friends. It was called "For The Love of Godzilla". Ever since then and in 2023, I extended the Documentry Film and it can be seen on my YouTube Channel. The film is dedicated to Haruo Nakajima who passed away in 2017. He was the original Godzilla Suit Actor at Toho Studios.

  Happy Autumn 2025 and it's that time of the year where the leaves turn brown, the nights are drawing in and soon it'll be time to turn the clocks back. Autumn is here, and so is Halloween. Cosy nights and seasonal changes. A lot of people embrace Autumn with walks and Halloween Celebrations. Whatever you are doing this Autumn, stay safe and warm and embrace it if you can. Plan breaks, holidays and celebrations with friends and enjoy it the best you can this year! I've been trying to take Autumnal Walks in fresh air, grab a hot drink or two cos it feels a bit like hibernation for some people. Stay Safe & Healthy and Warm. Kindest Autumn Regards... Happy Autumn 2025.

See the sunshine shining. Feel my blood and temperature rising. See the gangs get rowdy and start a fight. Bikes and cars are speeding Down a busy highway Never want to see the light Through curtains as I lie awake at night. In these times of chaos Chaos comes at a price of fun It's a bit of fun until the passion dies. Roll up, roll up, see the tension falling. As I leave this town crawling behind. To a new beginning. Get on a train and never look behind. When all is said and done We've all had some fun. Look after yourself and be careful not to let your spark die. Keep in mind your existence. We only get one chance at life. Just stop living on the edge of a knife.

Round and round we go. Walking in ruthless circles. Music banging loudly through my ears🎵🎶 Round and round we go, again. Not knowing what to do. Sliced my hand accidentlly on glass and nearly cut my fingers... On a slippery slope of mud and mess. This year was a year of distress. This wasn't a year at my best at all. Was it really anybody's year? We all tried and got nowhere. Lost our voices and love for all things Life. However, don't worry cos there's a light 🕯️ Stopping me in my tracks. A needle, sharp as a knife. Come with us and you will see. Five weeks of pure endless Eternity. Locked doors and white coats and medication 🧥 💊 You're going be here for a while. No denial that your mind is fragile. Keep yourself going and safe. Cos at the end of the day, you're going away. Corridors of blood, fighting and hoods Poorly people that on the inside were truly good. I'm waiting to get out of this prison of insane pain. Scream all you...

Another day, another dollar… sort of! I heard that the NHS and Mental Health Support are short staffed here in the UK. Trying to gain a CPN Support Worker is a very scarce thing for my local Mental Health Service. Also, I have depot injection monthly to boost my mood from the MH Centre. For a Mental Health Awareness Event, I remember that I took a walk around the Nottingham Forest Football Ground five times in a group with an awareness group going off. It took place early 2024. Also, over the past few years I had attended a few local pub events, Mind Over Metal (a music festival) for it to raise money for Andy's Man Club and the Mental Health Charity called Mind . Donations went towards the respected charities. I try to support Mental Health charity where and when I can. Sometimes, doing something is better than nothing 🚫  When the lowest of moods catch up, it's best to try and stay defiant in the face of depression, even if it means to take time out or take a break. Let the ...

John’s Mental Health Journals! In 2007 (the year I walked out of my final job) I remember it being a dark evening. The nights were drawing in and the fear was there, but something comforting about sleeping on the living room floor. The flat had been rearranged for a new carpet in the bedroom. My cupboards and fittings were everywhere in the flat and I just laid there, in the dark, not knowing where my head was at. From 2023 - 2024, I start to get tired more during the day. I sleep more and struggle to move. The nights drawing in don’t help. The days are short and I feel less motivated than I ever have felt before at home. During the inbetween days, if I get up and face it, I’ll go to town. The times I feel frustrated are when I feel anxious about stepping outside my comfort zone. I have to calm myself down with night medication for anxiety. Or sleep it off. I can’t control how negative I feel about myself and the world when I really talk myself out of situations, going places and tryin...