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John’s Mental Health Journals! In 2007 (the year I walked out of my final job) I remember it being a dark evening. The nights were drawing in and the fear was there, but something comforting about sleeping on the living room floor. The flat had been rearranged for a new carpet in the bedroom. My cupboards and fittings were everywhere in the flat and I just laid there, in the dark, not knowing where my head was at. From 2023 - 2024, I start to get tired more during the day. I sleep more and struggle to move. The nights drawing in don’t help. The days are short and I feel less motivated than I ever have felt before at home. During the inbetween days, if I get up and face it, I’ll go to town. The times I feel frustrated are when I feel anxious about stepping outside my comfort zone. I have to calm myself down with night medication for anxiety. Or sleep it off. I can’t control how negative I feel about myself and the world when I really talk myself out of situations, going places and tryin...