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It was a Bank Holiday Monday. I was feeling brave. It took me weeks to build up to telling my local pub that I was Transgender and open about my Gender Identity, etc. I felt that I should be honest and opened up the barman who is a friend. He was cool, shook his hand then I felt a little overwhelmed so I went for a walk. Later that day, I returned to the pub location and decided to sit in a smaller area of the facility. I decided to start wearing my wig from in my bag. I went to the bar and asked for tap water. However, I was feeling brave and was sneered at by a duo of girls who laughed at my expense. "A Man in A Wig", "Not Another One!" - this all felt hurtful and a little Transphobic to me. I was very hurt and felt bad for the barman who probably felt bad for me. This wasn't a positive experience, but I felt free and honest about the day, if not a little hurt. Again, the barman was great and I'm sorry if I made him feel bad for me. My advice is be careful...

Hi, nice to meet you... My name is John/Esme. I feel in two spirits as a person who suffers from mental health and also talking medication to control my Schizoaffective Disorder. It takes work and patience as does any other job or personal development of any sort. Now, I know I like to Crossdress at night in private behind closed doors. Not many people know apparently apart from those that read this or know. Recently, I decided to try and get back into music but have had a few rejections in joining musical band or projects. Through this, I met a friend called Amelia. I opened up to her about how I was feeling. Other contacts advised for me to open up to family. I opened up to family again as I did in 2017 about Gender Identity Issues and confronting them and try to draw a timeline in where I want to be in the near future. This is all scary and familiar at the same time. For example, the worry and anxiety I feel about being in the open as I was a shy person growing up who was dealing wi...