Esme Rose Shelton's Official Blog!

Hello, Esme here... I don't want to be a "Man" in a Wig! I want and will be going going onto HRT. Now, it's definitely the fear of the unknown. How to present? What to wear? And what to do with my days?  I've had an underwhelming sort of day and I can't always put my finger on it? These days do not last and I find that the sun goes down in denial. I'm doing fine, trying my best and a this all could be Gender Dysphoria.  I will be speaking to my Mental Health Team this month in April. I will be open and honest about my Gender Identity and as I've explained a few things in this blog is that I need further support as I've been going at this all alone at my home and visiting town to break up the days. You don't have to feel alone, but sometimes and we will get bad days.  Love and Light! Take Care and stay Positive and true to Yourself and others around you in uncertainty and through the negativity of the mind trying to play tricks!

For a start, Thank You so much for reading. I appreciate the time and love and patience. I came out so to speak to a family member and friends over the years and now to a professional mental health support team and psychiatrist.  I was often thinking to myself as in what if a loved one or person found my female clothes and wig? It's kind of a natural step to "Come Out" and I've always relied on talking as well as writing.  Even though I can't find the right words or language on how I'm feeling, I feel that the pen is mightier than the sword and writing has always been some sort of outlet. Now I know all of this is scary and maybe even a little bit confusing, but I know I'm not getting any younger. I have crossdressed for many years and purged clothes, but always come back months or years down the line.  I haven't been in a relationship for a very long time and was thinking to myself that I'd have to explain it a partner or loves one at some point, ...