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Round and round we go. Walking in ruthless circles. Music banging loudly through my ears🎵🎶 Round and round we go, again. Not knowing what to do. Sliced my hand accidentlly on glass and nearly cut my fingers... On a slippery slope of mud and mess. This year was a year of distress. This wasn't a year at my best at all. Was it really anybody's year? We all tried and got nowhere. Lost our voices and love for all things Life. However, don't worry cos there's a light 🕯️ Stopping me in my tracks. A needle, sharp as a knife. Come with us and you will see. Five weeks of pure endless Eternity. Locked doors and white coats and medication 🧥 💊 You're going be here for a while. No denial that your mind is fragile. Keep yourself going and safe. Cos at the end of the day, you're going away. Corridors of blood, fighting and hoods Poorly people that on the inside were truly good. I'm waiting to get out of this prison of insane pain. Scream all you...

Another day, another dollar… sort of! I heard that the NHS and Mental Health Support are short staffed here in the UK. Trying to gain a CPN Support Worker is a very scarce thing for my local Mental Health Service. Also, I have depot injection monthly to boost my mood from the MH Centre. For a Mental Health Awareness Event, I remember that I took a walk around the Nottingham Forest Football Ground five times in a group with an awareness group going off. It took place early 2024. Also, over the past few years I had attended a few local pub events, Mind Over Metal (a music festival) for it to raise money for Andy's Man Club and the Mental Health Charity called Mind . Donations went towards the respected charities. I try to support Mental Health charity where and when I can. Sometimes, doing something is better than nothing 🚫  When the lowest of moods catch up, it's best to try and stay defiant in the face of depression, even if it means to take time out or take a break. Let the ...

John’s Mental Health Journals! In 2007 (the year I walked out of my final job) I remember it being a dark evening. The nights were drawing in and the fear was there, but something comforting about sleeping on the living room floor. The flat had been rearranged for a new carpet in the bedroom. My cupboards and fittings were everywhere in the flat and I just laid there, in the dark, not knowing where my head was at. From 2023 - 2024, I start to get tired more during the day. I sleep more and struggle to move. The nights drawing in don’t help. The days are short and I feel less motivated than I ever have felt before at home. During the inbetween days, if I get up and face it, I’ll go to town. The times I feel frustrated are when I feel anxious about stepping outside my comfort zone. I have to calm myself down with night medication for anxiety. Or sleep it off. I can’t control how negative I feel about myself and the world when I really talk myself out of situations, going places and tryin...