Hi, nice to meet you... My name is John/Esme. I feel in two spirits as a person who suffers from mental health and also talking medication to control my Schizoaffective Disorder. It takes work and patience as does any other job or personal development of any sort.
Now, I know I like to Crossdress at night in private behind closed doors. Not many people know apparently apart from those that read this or know.
Recently, I decided to try and get back into music but have had a few rejections in joining musical band or projects.
Through this, I met a friend called Amelia. I opened up to her about how I was feeling. Other contacts advised for me to open up to family. I opened up to family again as I did in 2017 about Gender Identity Issues and confronting them and try to draw a timeline in where I want to be in the near future.
This is all scary and familiar at the same time. For example, the worry and anxiety I feel about being in the open as I was a shy person growing up who was dealing with stress throughout school and in my teenage years.
I've opened up and let flood gates loose, but I am an anxious soul. I like to write my feelings down and worries so that I can hopefully see a bigger picture and timeline of my mental health and small amount of goals in life.
This is going to take time, I know that for sure. Today, I spent a few hours in town trying to clear my head and try to tidy up and sometimes distract my thought process.
Special Shout Out to Emrys Ramone and what a cool name and being for listening to me today and inviting me along to their partner's birthday party at the weekend coming... It's been a while! Thanks 🙏 👍
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