Transphobia At and Feeling Cold At the Pub!

It was a Bank Holiday Monday. I was feeling brave. It took me weeks to build up to telling my local pub that I was Transgender and open about my Gender Identity, etc.

I felt that I should be honest and opened up the barman who is a friend. He was cool, shook his hand then I felt a little overwhelmed so I went for a walk.

Later that day, I returned to the pub location and decided to sit in a smaller area of the facility.

I decided to start wearing my wig from in my bag. I went to the bar and asked for tap water.

However, I was feeling brave and was sneered at by a duo of girls who laughed at my expense. "A Man in A Wig", "Not Another One!" - this all felt hurtful and a little Transphobic to me. I was very hurt and felt bad for the barman who probably felt bad for me.

This wasn't a positive experience, but I felt free and honest about the day, if not a little hurt. Again, the barman was great and I'm sorry if I made him feel bad for me.

My advice is be careful who you think you trust or who you can rely on in certain situations and environments. Don't let it affect you, but try to move on and seek positive guidance and loving care.

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