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Home-Town Soul - A Reflection on Being Creative!

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I hate Ignorance for no reason. Come on, it’s a bit silly now that you would do this after you came to me? Ah, Social Media... The Devil's Work!
Maybe it was my tiny breakdown? Was it something I said? Sod it, it doesn’t matter, now. What’s done is done, but it still stings when you’ve done nothing wrong. Anyway, life is very short. This year we lost Ozzy (Osbourne) and in recent years a lot of people we came to love and respect.
It feels like a huge competition sometimes in the film scene. People fighting for that number one spot of fame and fortune and a special friendship circle. This is nothing new to me if I'm honest. I love being creative and always have been since primary school. In school, I used to write stories about far out people and scenarios where class friends and teachers wanted more of the adventure or intriguing story with pictures drawn by myself. There was surely a spark of madness or genius way back then in class.
As we get older, we sometimes lose that spark of innocence or creativity within ourselves. Please don’t lose that spark. Don’t stop believing in yourself or those willing to help you out if they share that crazy, creative spark through art and creativity.
In the smallest, tiniest of towns or council estates, don’t forget to dream bigger, larger or louder than the rest of the herd. It’s your inner will that will show through.
Hailing from Clifton, Nottingham in the suburbs in England, it can seem a lonely place. The musician Jake Bugg must have felt the same and it shows in his musical lyrics. We actually attended the same secondary school. Bugg hasn’t done bad for himself. I wonder if he ever got taken off Facebook? I wonder if he ever wrote a tune or song in which others thought “You Shouldn’t Be Singing About That”? - Bless him and anybody that has felt against the odds to create or sing or draw or even write a poem!
I’m a content creator for YouTube. I’m on my laptop a lot, even right now, pouring my thoughts and feelings into this forward. Do I have a chip on my shoulder? I don’t know, maybe? I get the impression that a lot of people do or have delicate egos.
Filmmakers and creative types normally add me to social networks through the grind and scenery. However, I tend to keep my friend circles small. Am I insecure or sensitive? Maybe a bit, but why are others so insensitive or feel the need to drag others down?
We live in a cruel world. Dogs eat dogs sometimes, but hey ho, that’s how it goes! Crazy, but that’s how it goes - sang the later Ozzy Osbourne. He was another soul who was misunderstood and all he wanted was the love of an audience or to dream bigger than life itself. Keep on dreaming! Don’t let the bastards hold you down. Keep on giving and don’t stop living.



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