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What's My Name... Again?

Hey, I went to the pub in a wig. Guess what? Nobody knows what to call me now? Is it "John"? Is it "Esme"? Have I lost it? The answer I feel is that I haven't lost it, but opened the flood gates on who or what is being created at this moment in time.

I'm still me. I'm still a good person. Not everyone gets to truly re-invent themselves or even get another chance at some things in life. I feel a little bit empowered, emotional and even a little stressed sometimes. 

I guess it's mixed feelings. However, I feel quite positive for all that's been said and done. It's not a bad thing. It's just another opportunity to grow and develop confidence and a better outlook on life.

I'm not saying that I had a bad outlook, but in this world you have to keep going. There will be bad and good times. Just hold onto looking forward and stay true to yourself and others. However, stay positive.


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  1. Lianne pople28 May 2026 at 12:07

    The pic below shows me who u want to be. Who you'd like to be. If thats true then be it. It could be the root to the happiness youve been craving, the missing pieces to your happiness

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