Why I Came Out at 46 & What This All Means?

For a start, Thank You so much for reading. I appreciate the time and love and patience.

I came out so to speak to a family member and friends over the years and now to a professional mental health support team and psychiatrist. 

I was often thinking to myself as in what if a loved one or person found my female clothes and wig? It's kind of a natural step to "Come Out" and I've always relied on talking as well as writing. 

Even though I can't find the right words or language on how I'm feeling, I feel that the pen is mightier than the sword and writing has always been some sort of outlet.

Now I know all of this is scary and maybe even a little bit confusing, but I know I'm not getting any younger. I have crossdressed for many years and purged clothes, but always come back months or years down the line. 

I haven't been in a relationship for a very long time and was thinking to myself that I'd have to explain it a partner or loves one at some point, so why not now when I have the chance and it's only fair.

However, some stuff in my life is that I feel I should keep sacred. I've opened myself up to criticism and some people won't or don't get it necessarily sometimes, sadly.

Only for the sake of sanity and trust issues I'm keeping so much to myself at this time. I feel as though I have been brave enough so far. Sometimes it's best to be honest with yourself and try to put up boundaries.